Making my day

I was told today by a friend that I was their inspiration for planning events. I was caught off guard for a second....well because I was flattered by their statement. It's not like I had helped them make some life changing decision or anything with great importance. But I had inspired them with my actions and enthusiasms for something of which I just loved doing in the first place. Hearing that kind of made my day. Knowing that I had helped someone was pretty awesome to find out. I just hope that I inspire people more often than I hear about. I enjoy seeing people driven to accomplish something; it shows life in them: a hope and a desire for something different, something new.

Life is not simple, and as boring as it might seem at times, it is incredibly complex. To live it, one must have a desire to live it. A passion, a driving force behind them that fuels them. A catalyst like this comes in a numerous amount of forms. I need not name any of those because I am certain that a list lies in every mind. Mine (the basics, but then again, those are always the most important): God, my family and friends.

God My creator. My father. My closest friend. A slew of names that are too endless to list or to translate and explain for a blog like this. I am no theologian, and I cannot explain with perfect clarity the ways of God-- no one can though. But of course that's how it was meant to be. Life has it's many mysteries, and the mind of God is one of them. However, He lets us in on the secret every once in a while. We just have to listen: be willing to listen actually. It is of course our choice whether we heed His word or not. For our betterment, to listen to Him is always the best thing, but even when we don't, He's still there for us... Every Single Time. And knowing that He is there for me every stinkin' time I screw up or actually do do something right is absolutely amazing to me. God inspires my life. Every aspect of it, every crevice and corner that I might not always see. For him, I choose how to live my life, how I choose to treat others, love them, love myself. God's love is supposed to be shown through me (1 John 4:12). I am to love others to prove to them God's love for them. But I must do this will a full and committed heart. I don't do it cus He "told me" too. I do it out of my own desire (again, it's our choice). I want to treat people with love and respect: that's just who I am. And I do not sit on a high horse here; I completely admit that I'm no perfect Christian. I have my faults (many), and there are times that I don't do what I'm telling you right now that I want/love to do. I am saddened that I cannot be my best every single second of the day, but it is in the muck of life where amazing lessons are learned; we just have to remember to keep our eyes open for them. I have felt at times that I am in utter darkness and that there is ABSOLUTELY nothing to be done that can help me escape the dark. Not even God... I hang my head in admitting that because I feel terrible for not even relying on God- someone who will never ever leave me. In that moment, nothing can save me, not even the God who created me! This distasteful lie is my moment of weakness in which the next day I can't even believe that I actually felt it. Why would I give up on the one who has never given up on me? Who desires to see me live a happy life. Died- to see me live. And if somebody who died for my life can't inspire at the very least a little spark in my life...well then I have a sad outlook on life in general. But I thank GOD! that my weaknesses are wiped away by Him. And with each passing weakness, I have a little more strength to face life, a little more inspiration to go on. God gave me the ability to inspire and be inspired, but He is main inspiration to me living each and every day.

Each of my family members hold a different and special place in my heart. For although all three of them are supportive of me and how I live, they each support me in their own way. All three of them inspire me in different aspects of my life and at different points in my life. To be a better daughter, a better sister, a better mentor, a better example, a better person. To describe how they have helped me would take pages and pages of words that only could be described as many thank you's. They are my life force back home that I know sends their love and support to me daily as I am off hundreds of miles away making a name for myself and learning about myself. No one and nothing could ever replace a single one of them.

Daily, "tangible" support comes from my friends, both far and near. My every day actions and conversations with them opens up a Pandora's box of lessons, adventures, stories, secrets, fears, happiness, grief, love, wonder, and inspirations. Through them I find myself. I hope that through me, they find themselves. Maybe I inspire them. I hope that I help them. I wish that every single one of my friends will see their potential (which ALL of them possess) in life and will grasp it, tame it, and utilize it. Hopefully, I may have the opportunity to assist them in reaching their potential...even if I'm a little water to their seed of life. I want to invite people to live life with a little more vigor than the day before. Feel hope that ever seems so fleeting. I want them to attain the amazing wonders that each has in store for the future. I want to see them blossom and grow with strength with each passing day. I want to see them achieve. To live...Actually live. Explore. Seek. Inspire. I pray that I inspire them in some shape or form, some time in their life, at least once.